I was reflecting about what Mother's Day means to me
(besides the super awesome gifts I get when my husband waits to the last minute and has to get me something expensive because he doesn't know what else to do).Mother's day has evolved from the times I was a little girl to the present. Mother's Day was first a day when I recognized my own mom and grandmas for how much I loved them. I didn't have a true appreciation for the role they played in my life, but I knew it was a day when I would give them a card and be on my best behavior.
For a couple of years, Mother's Day was a day of tears and sadness. I didn't look forward to it, I dreaded it. Becoming a mom wasn't easy for me. It was filled with many roadblocks. I almost gave up. I'm glad I didn't. Now on Mother's Day, I also think about those who are struggling to get pregnant and those that have lost their children. Once a mother, always a mother.
One year, Mother's day was a day filled with
anticipation! I was (finally) pregnant and looking forward to my new role as a mom. I thought I knew how great it would be. I wasn't even close. It is life changing. Coincidentally, I also didn't know how hard it would be. It is a test of endurance at times, and it is rewarding.
Last year, I was a new working mom with a 9 month old. I spent most of my free time doing laundry covered in baby poop and spit up. Really, I just wanted to survive the day.
This year I am a more confident mom. I'm starting to learn how to balance career and family. I am accepting change. I am out of survival mode and into one of enjoyment. I am a mom who is proud of her family. I have a husband who is appreciative of my mommy skills. I am a lucky, lucky lady. I suppose that when one becomes a grandmother it changes again, as it does with all of our experiences. I look forward to a lifetime of Mother's day with the best daughter ever :)
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