Another First...

This afternoon while playing with Emma, we were giggling and tickling each other. Just playing like us crazy girls do. I noticed the strangest look on my little girl's face. She stopped laughing and just stared at me with her wide grin. She was studying my face and she looked so happy.... and I've never felt more loved, ever. It was one of those moments where everything just seemed clear (because I admit I have been strugglin' with all my jugglin').

It seems weird to say, but I felt honored that I was the object of her adoration (if only for a fleeting 10 seconds). It also scared me a bit. It was the first time I thought "my daughter needs me." I mean I know she has always needed me, but now maybe she knows it too. I don't really know how to put it into words. It also reminded me of myself as a little girl and how I worshiped my own mom (and still do). It's hard to describe, but it was awesome to experience. I have to say it lifted my spirits up just when I needed it. Fuel for another day, or two. This must be what rock stars feel like...... :)

A mother understands what a child does not say.
- Jewish proverb

The soul is healed by being with children.
-FYODOR DOSTOEVSKY, The Idiot